Hope for Him

If I must boast, I will boast of the things that show my weakness. As Christians we are to boast in the things that we are weak in. Because the things that we are weak in, Christ makes us strong. And this weak I am proclaiming how faithful the Lord has been. This pass weak I have been sick which makes me miss home. I miss the comforts. And I’ve been trying to hide it. I don’t like going up to someone and telling them my problems. I like to bottle things up inside which isn’t good. But that weakness was seen by a leader and I was approached. I was asked how I was doing. And I couldn’t lie. I said what was on my mind and woke up the next day praying Psalm 17:6-7. I had a feeling it was going to be a hard day so I prayed that the Lord would show is steadfast love and answer my call. After I had gotten all my work at school done I began to think about home again as I walked to the church’s cafe. As I was sitting there Betty asked if anyone wanted to help a prayer child read a  letter

Who comforts us in all our affliction, so that we may be able to comfort those who are in any affliction, with the comfort with which we ourselves are comforted by God. For as we share abundantly in Christ’s sufferings, so through Christ we share abundantly in comfort too.  Last week ended with great hope. I had great hope that this week would be so much better since being more comfortable in the classroom. But starting the week off I had some conflicts. I got sick. I have amebas. I didn’t find out until today. I had to stay home from school for two days which was really hard for me. It was humbling watching someone else take my position and learn so much. It’s not an easy job but it’s rewarding. It was rewarding getting out of the car and seeing my kids run at me yelling “teacher” and giving me giant hugs. Staying home today was a challenge just because I don’t like to sit around resting. I like doing tasks and getting them done. But the Lord gave me this section of scripture a

Whenever Moses held up his hand, Israel prevailed, and whenever he lowered his hand, Amalek prevailed. 12  But Moses’ hands grew weary, so they took a stone and put it under him, and he sat on it, while Aaron and Hur held up his hands, one on one side, and the other on the other side. So his hands were steady until the going down of the sun. This section of scripture did not hit me until yesterday. At first it reminded me of a game we play sometimes that about having one hand up or down. Moses is on a hill with Aaron and Hur and has the staff of God in his hand. But what is incredible is that 11  Whenever Moses held up his hand, Israel prevailed, and whenever he lowered his hand, Amalek prevailed. But Moses’s hands got weary to the men helped him by holding his hands up. This happened until the end of day. I can’t imagine holding my hands up for that long but it is a beautiful picture. It relates to us interns so much. We are to hold up the hands of our leaders. That can look like s

Philippians 4:8-9   Finally, brothers, whatever is true, whatever is honorable, whatever is just, whatever is pure, whatever is lovely, whatever is commendable, if there is any excellence, if there is anything worthy of praise, think about these things. 9  What you have learned and received and heard and seen in me—practice these things, and the God of peace will be with you.  So the past week we have had the PFM team from Montana here in Uganda for the Pastor’s conference. It was a radical week. So many things were taken place and the spirit was really moving through every one of us as we went there as a team. As I got there I really knew the Lord was going to work in my heart. But little did I know he was going to work in my mind. The whole week the enemy was putting lies and doubts in my head. One day Jojo asked me how I was doing and I explained this to her. She then gave me this verse. I needed to combat the enemy with whatever was true, honorable, just, pure, lovely, comme

1 John 4:18–19  There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear. For fear has to do with punishment, and whoever fears has not been perfected in love. 19  We love because he first loved us. Love does not envy, boast, is arrogant, or act rudely. Sometimes these things come out when we have a fear of man. I know I have a daily battle with myself because I sometimes fear man. But there is no fear in love. If i fear then I have not been perfected in love. This is something I have been mediating on. I have been reading 1 Corinthians 13 and realized what perfect love is. It is truly our heavenly father. But looking at love in others lives it is patient, kind, rejoices in truth, hopes all things, believes all things, and endures all things. Do I have those in my life? Most of the time no. But I am challenged to practice these so that I am not fearful. It is interesting to me that fear is used indifferent ways of the Bible. Like how we are to fear and have reverence towards God.

Exodus 4:10–12   But Moses said to the Lord, “Oh, my Lord, I am not eloquent, either in the past or since you have spoken to your servant, but I am slow of speech and of tongue.” 11  Then the Lord said to him, “Who has made man’s mouth? Who makes him mute, or deaf, or seeing, or blind? Is it not I, the Lord? 12  Now therefore go, and I will be with your mouth and teach you what you shall speak.” So often we don’t think we are equipped for what God has for us. Moses didn’t. He saw the signs of the Lord and still asked for someone else to do his job. The Lord then used Aaron to speak through as Moses shared with him the things from the Lord. I sometimes feel myself in Moses’s circumstance. I fail to do the tasks the Lord has for me and come up with excuses or complain that I’m not good enough. But being “not good enough” is a lie that the enemy uses in my head. But when I’m at Kid’s club or teaching at Sunday School or assisting, the Lord will speak through me if I’m willing to li